Well as you all know, Ive had a very emotional past couple of months with my boyfriend breaking up with me, not knowing what he wants after 7 years, etc... we went for a walk the other day and talked... he says he doesnt want to categorize our relationship as just being friends, because categorization and putting a label on things is stupid to him and pointless apparently.... he is being distant, yet wants me there and is interested in my life.... However, I told him that I cant be just "friends" with him and that I dont think I can see him until he figures out exactly what he wants out of life and out of me.....
In the meaning, Ive been hanging out with one of my good old friends... I ran into him again after years of being apart and we get along soo good, only problem is last nite I went over to his house to watch a movie and he told me how stupid my boyfriend was to let me go and then he kissed me... Bad thing is .. I kind of liked it... but I dont want to ruin our friendship and I told him that Im still confused and dont want to hurt anyone.... other thing is that he has been there for me throughout this time, and really truly cares about me.... I think though he has also " been around the block" a few too many times... I know he has dated and been with quite a few women.... at the same time, I cant imagine not having this friend of mine in my life.... and could possibly someday maybe have feelings for him... but for me its too early to tell, being that Im still so hurt over what my boyfriend had done to me... and Id never do that to him, make him the "rebound" guy... ya know?
I have learned one thing, that I will never be alone... there are a lot of people that truly care for me and if he doesnt want to be with me, there are plenty of people that would love the chance..... Im keeping my head up and staying strong.. you all are right... and I thank you all for your advice and being there for me.... Only time will tell what happens with my future, but for now, Im staying strong and thinking positively! [img]smile.gif[/img]